Emotional Clearing Monster Hunting

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Big Project Done

As I mentioned in a previous post, recently I was able to complete a bit project at work. That freed up my attention quite a bit and gave me more time to devote to other things. My emotional clearing pasttime is one of those things I ramped up. Partly as a result of my emotional clearing todate, I felt I could get jobs done faster, find solutions faster and learn faster. My ability to concentrate has gone up. My ability to produce sustained action has gone up. I am working harder now on my emotional clearing than before because I feel I am getting results.

Contemplation of debris

Yesterday and today I was going through some old debris in my emotional past. I changed topics a few times and then settled on a particularly current topic. As a result of my contemplation, a small part of my minbd began to worry. Worry is not always bad, but in my case it can sometimes act as the food for the melancholy monster. I have felt the attack of the melancholoy monster many times in the past but the attack is usually so swift and damaging that I could not respond well or even recognize it in the past. Today, the melancholoy monster attacked.

Monster Attack!

...out of the blue ...

It came out of the blue, as always, and pushed me into a profound state of melancholic despair. In the past I always got stuck there. but over the past few years, with my emotional clearing breathing technique, I have gotten better at dispelling it. Today was the best yet. I think I hit a record, dispelling the melancholy monster in a matter of a few hours. (Before my emotional clearing practice, I could expect a spell of melancholy to last weeks or months)

Parried it

...maybe I can deal the death blow...

Today I recognized it almost at the moment of attack. I was able to watch the melancholy monster's attack method, and not only parry it, but also go hunting. I pursued my prey and dealt some striking blows. The melancholy monster feeds on energy and past historical episode's energy. I could drain a lot of the monster's energy and then I went hunting into those past attacks and drained lots of the energy from those spells. I consider this to be a big victory. I don't think it is gone but it is certainly severly weakened and now I have had a chance to study both it's methods of attack and timing, and also how to wound it. In fact, I am looking forward to our next meeting, so maybe I can deal the death blow, or get considerably closer to doing so.